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I’m back (resurrection)

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Hi, It’s me and I’m back from an unplanned hiatus. Partly because life gets in the way and also because of the fact I’m not sure if blogging is dying, but even if it is, I’ve decided I’ll still try to write as often as I can as it genuinely brings me happiness. So where I’m at in life is working in a full time job as a Journalist. I feel so weird calling myself that but I guess that’s what I am. I mainly started this blog to cope through uni as my gosh was it hard. The Lord was really testing me lol. Now I’ve finished I feel generally on the whole less stressed. But when it comes to deadlines and working under pressure, I obviously get it done but the stress I experience before my work deadlines, I would never wish on anyone. I am only human, and like other humans I’m sure they also get really stressed at times, so really I should be less hard on myself. It’s easier said than done though. Full time work is... interesting. I can’t believe my parents did this and managed to feed, clothe
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Positive News

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This week I decided to gather some of the positive news I’ve seen recently - so here we go. This photo was taken yesterday at Stockwood park in the sun 1) Lemonade is now available on Spotify and Apple Music (Yes – really!) Beyoncé  finally listened to our pleads and dropped Lemonade on the streaming platforms Spotify and Apple music three years after its initial release. The digital album had been exclusive to Tidal since 23 rd April 2016, until now. This proved to be a problem in the beginning as initially it cost a hefty price of £19.99 to subscribe to the platform. (The same cost as Netflix, Student Apple Music, and Spotify combined – yikes!) I would say that after last week’s release of Bey’s Netflix film Homecoming, and a live album to accompany this that we are being spoilt, but honestly – it’s what we deserve! (April 23 rd ) 2) Malawi begins Malaria vaccine trials that can offer children partial protection from the disease After three decades of ha
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It's been a while

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Greetings. It's been 365 days since I last posted on my blog. Without sounding incredibly cheesy (which I always do), it has been a whirlwind of a year... and I think that's why it has taken me so long to publish something.  I just didn't really know where to start. And yes I am fully aware that my online ramblings were not missed. If this whole post comes off as a moan, then I apologise, as that's not what it is. My intention was to write down my feelings as I would never say them out loud unless I had a gin and tonic in my hand. I guess this is an attempt to pick out what I have not achieved in 2018 and understand what I can do in 2019 to make sure that I do.  My last blog post honed in on my mental development and the process and journey that I was on and what I wanted to achieve in 2018.  To put rephrase this I tweeted this in 2017... ... and failed, so tried to put it in practice in 2018 and use it as a template to think about wh
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End of Year Thoughts - Mental Progress

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So here I am at 6:52 am on December 31st, lying in my bed trying to manically be productive and get my academic life together. I realise that I probably should have started this earlier, but I think the deeper rooted point that should be taken from this is how quickly the first term of third year has flown by, and how I have not had time, up until these holidays to really stop and take a break. This is partially down to my studies, partially down to the extra-curricular activities I'm involved in, and just how busy life has been for me trying to work out what I need to do to build a career. Crazy.  The most important thing that I want to look back on this year is the mental progress that I have made. In the second semester of 1st year (2016), I was diagnosed with depression. One of the hardest things about this illness is that I never knew what to expect and when I was going to beat it. This uncertainty unsettled me further as obviously you can't be given a time frame
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Third Year

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So before I combust (literally), I am actively searching for any vices to try and prevent the aforementioned occuring.  Third year really is no joke. What I'm finding particularly horrific this morning as I angrily type,sigh , and roll my eyes is that I've had no marks back yet and it is TEN weeks into the term. This is actually an easily stressed out person's nightmare. No indication of knowing where I am at in such a crucial year is not really ideal, but at the same time knowing where I am at would probably be enough to push me into hysteria. So my complaining here is even more ineffective and purposeless than it normally is. Yay.  I can't help but simultaenously laugh and cry that this year has actually proven to me that I academically peaked in Year 6. Since then, I have been scribbling down nonsense on assignments and if I couldn't successfully do it pre univeristy, I don't know why I thought I could do it now but anyway... Also before I move on
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1 in 4

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KEY Gam – Godmother or Grandmother Boss-ass –  A boss. The best of the best – a real OG. I was very sceptical about writing about the decay of my mental health from the beginning, and admittedly there are some things I have chosen to leave out and will aim to come back to throughout this month whether that is on this website or in my own personal time. I have decided to write about this because I feel that I am in a place in my life where I am ‘free’. I also know that I can be perceived as joyous and content, but it isn’t always like this. I find my own mental health to be incredibly complex, as there are layers and layers of things that have taken me a while to address and think about. There is so much for me to write down, and if I wrote it all I could probably have enough words to fill about 100 book volumes. For a while, when thinking about my mental health, I used to cringe. I cringed because I felt uncomfortable and ashamed about the personality traits I used to have and
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How I am Learning to Cope and Overcome Mental Obstacles and How YOU Can Too

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Today I am really struggling to get my head around the fact it is August. I know at some point every year we often exclaim how quickly the year has gone but I am going to say it one more time because for real 2017 has flown by. When thinking about my summer break which started in June, I noticed how happy and care-free I have been as nothing is mentally draining me in comparison to the months prior to June and my university studies. It is no secret how badly I deal with stress and anxiety and how they are particularly triggered by university and are heavily driven by education. I thoroughly enjoy the social aspect of university but stress is something I have struggled with since AS Level. I know millions of people go to university and take A Levels, but I think it’s really important to point out that individually some people deal with certain situations better than others and education and academics are just two things I don’t deal very well with. Now as Cliché it may sound
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